난 꿈이 없었지 I didn't have a dream
내 가사처럼 맨날 그런 식 Every day it was like that, like my lyrics
내게 답을 주지 못했던 함수와 방정식 Functions and equations that couldn't give me an answer
그것들은 결국 수많은 해가 되었네 They ended up becoming many suns
그 빛으로 뒤에 숨은 별을 볼 수 없게 해 I can't see the stars behind that light
그렇게 하루하루 날 죽여가며 Killing myself day by day like that
뜻도 없이 한우 등급 같은 숫자놀음에 종일을 매달려
Occupied all day with being meaninglessly graded like cuts of beef
난 그저 성공하고 싶었어 I just wanted to succeed
남들에게 지겹게 들었던 말이 그것뿐이어서 I tediously listened to others, that's all they would say
행복이란 신기룬 거기 잡혀있을 줄 알았지
I thought the mirage called happiness would be held there
하지만 책상 앞의 난 단 한 순간도 행복하지 않았지
But I wasn't happy for a single moment in front of the desk
어머니 몰래 문제집 사이에 백지를 끼웠네 I put a blank sheet between the pages of my workbook without my mother knowing
드럼 베이스에 맞춰 써 내려가던 나의 정체 My identity that I wrote to the drum base
성적표를 받을 때완 다른 숨 쉬는 느낌
It feels like I'm breathing differently when I get my report card
1등을 해도 내 맘은 늘 편치 못했었지
Even if I won first place, my heart was always uncomfortable
남들이 원하는 걸 꼭 원할 필요 있는가 Do you have to want what others want?
난 한평생 한이 담긴 한숨 쉬며 살기보다
Rather than sighing with regret for the rest of my life,
한을 떼어내고 그냥 숨을 쉬며 사는 길을 택했어 I'm removing sadness and taking the path of life where I can just breath
*Note: in these lines, Namjoon plays with the word 한 (Han), which is used in several other BTS/RM songs. 한 is a difficult to describe Korean concept that refers to a sort of mix of negative emotions including sadness and resentment. The word 한숨 means sigh, so when Namjoon says 한을 떼어내고 (I remove the Han), he's removing the 한 from 한숨, which leaves you with 숨, the word for breath. So essentially, by removing the negative emotion from a sigh, it's just a breath.
다 손가락질했네 얄팍한 나의 주위에선 All the superficial people around me pointed their fingers at me
내 꿈은 나의 목소릴 모두에게 주는 것 My dream is to give my voice to everyone
내가 어떤 모습일지라도, 내 음악과 가사로 No matter what I look like, with my music and lyrics,
이걸 듣고 있는 니가 어떨지 잘 모르지만
I don't know how you feel listening to this but,
날 욕해도 좋아 결국 너도 날 또 찾게 될 테니까 It's okay if you curse at me because ultimately you'll look for me again
그래 7년이 지나도 5만원짜리 마이크로 Yeah even after 7 years, I use a 50,000 won mic
여전히 방 한 켠에서 혼자 만들어낸 믹스테잎 I'm still in the corner of my room, making a mixtape by myself
Some say I’m fake 그래 인정한다 나의 흑역사 Some say I'm fake, yeah I admit my dark history
변명할 수 있지만 안 해 다신 그딴 일 없을 거야 I can make excuses, but I won't. It won't happen again
Yeah I be real 이 순간 내가 절실히 바라던 일 Yeah I be real this moment is what I really wanted
7년간 밟아오던 페달에 드디어 기름칠 I'm finally oiling the pedals that I've been stepping on for 7 years
You can’t kill
Come take it if you do wanna piece of me
오직 음악으로 말해 딴 분야 따윈 일 없지 I only speak through music, I don't care about anything else
If you really think you ready to fly with my
power
This is what R is about fella the time is now
남몰래 나의 목소리의 볼륨을 키워 Secretly raise the volume of my voice
알 수 있게 네게 닿을 수 있게 So that you can know, so that it can reach you
다시 한 번 나의 목소리의 볼륨을 키워
Once again, turn up the volume of my voice
알 수 있게 네게 닿을 수 있게
So that you can know, so that it can reach you
남몰래 나의 목소리의 볼륨을 키워 Secretly raise the volume of my voice
알 수 있게 네게 닿을 수 있게 So that you can know, so that it can reach you
다시 한 번 나의 목소리의 볼륨을 키워
Once again, turn up the volume of my voice
알 수 있게 네게 닿을 수 있게
So that you can know, so that it can reach you
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